It's Thursday!

>.< hehe My Thursday is the equivalence to everyone elses Friday. I need to clean up around the house so that I can enjoy the evening catching up on Lost, Heroes and then start reading my very anticipated Breaking Dawn! The weight and length of it calms me a bit and ensures me that I will won't read it in a flash and have plenty of story to satisfy myself with. ^.^ Even though tomorrow is my day off, it seems like its chalked full of things that need to get done starting with a drive down to Brownsville to do my taxes with Angie. No vegging out for me. Before I start off cleaning I am going to take molly for a long walk. She deserves it. ^.^

The Twilight Series....

O.K. This has to be one of the most addicting series that I have read in AGES. I read New Moon in Two Nights!!! It's probably been like 15 years since I have done that. Probably more! Anyways... I finished Eclipse last week, and I had to make a decision...I could wait to see if I would get Breaking Dawn for my birthday which is on the 11th... or I could go and buy it myself. IF I choose to buy it that would mean that I couldn't take the salsa dance lessons that I was planning on taking... having spent that money on the book. Well.... I couldn't wait that long...I had to start reading it. So today I went and bought it. >.< I figured that my desire to finish the series was WAY greater than my desire to learn to salsa. Salsa will be there after I am finished and I will enjoy it even more knowing that my soul is complete again having finished the series. >.<

*le sigh* Shar is right and I am wrong.

Ok so me and Shar were talking about running. She says that running makes her feel good. I said it doesn't make me feel good but it does make me feel a sense of accomplishment.... and so as I am running today I notice my cheeks hurting... and then I realize I'M SMILING! DOH! Gawd... I laughed and when I started to walk again I pulled out my phone to call Shar and acknowledge that she was right and I was wrong. Running does indeed make me happy. >.<

What has happened in the last month....

Wow! Over a month since I posted! I'm almost as bad as shar >.<

Ok I am going to try and fill you in with whats happened....be warned... it's sporadic >.<

Well, the trip was everything I hoped for and more. I love shar's family. Lee, I love her to death. Barbra had me very scared at first but I think I grew on her in the end. The scenic drive up there.... gorgeous! The snow was beautiful. Shar got me a bracelet that I absolutely love. She also got very sick. :(. I stayed an another week to help take care of her. All though I would have stayed mostly because I didn't want to go. I met Beth! She is everything I imagined she would be. I love Beth! She Rocks! She took me on a tour of San Francisco. I saw more than I thought I could in a day. My favorite place was the hill that over looked all of San Fran. I can't wait till I am living up with Shar. Then I can call up Beth and we can we can just go chill out on top of the hill and drink Boones and have a good time. ^.^ Micheal... I like Micheal. Irish.... I like Irish too. ^.^ DAVE...was nice to meet because I had NO idea what to expect with him. I like Dave ^.^ ! DAMN THE MAN!!! hehe >.< I definitely got a better idea of what there is to offer up there as far as jobs. I will start my file of applications and begin getting ready for that. Monica, is Shar's boss. I like Monica! ^.^ She also has two gorgeous golden retrievers! OMG those two are precious! Beth has two cats. One's a ... as shar put it.. a bitch, lol, and the other is A.D.D >.< . Shar has three cats. Those are her boys. Louie is her favorite. He is very shy though... or untrusting.. I can't tell. Lee has three dogs which I think are part horse because those suckers are freaking HUGE! They are the sweetest things though. ^.^

When I got back... I was very sad. I smiled only once on that first day. I think it's also part of the reason it has taken me so long to get back on my blog. I am doing much better now and the pang of missing Shar and Gabe has lessened greatly.

Work has been fine. There has been no further mention of me staying with them for as a salaried employee. I think that me staying the third week let them know where my heart is at. They know I love them, but I love Shar much more. Also... the opportunities for me up there are just soo much more.

Most recently, me and Angie (my lil ones mother), have had a closer relationship with in the last week. I am very happy for that. I was in a bad place in my heart and mind and she was there to console me. It was nice and it gave me much hope that things are on the way to healing between us. It's important I think. We need to be great friends if we plan on raising our children jointly. I don't think it can work if we aren't.... at least it wouldn't be healthy for them.

And... thats all I can think of off the top of my head... that's the gist of my last month plus a few days.

Vacation count down!

Excited about heading out to see Shar and Gabe. Hard to sleep.

We had a wonderful lil pre christmas thing at my grandparents so that my cousins and aunts and uncles could give them their presents and watch them open it. John's birthday is also on tuesday too so he got a couple of birthday presents as well. They loved it! It was a very fun evening. A lil something that turned into a big party.

*sighs* I better try and get some sleep... so hard though... *huggles self*

The Time is Flying!!!

Oh my! Time has just flown by. Of course work has been uber busy ... christmas at a toy store *shrugs* who would have known >.< . So much has happened since Tori's recital. Let's see if I can recap.

ummmm.... I burned my forearm with a pot of hot coffee! It left a pretty bad first degree burn. I am in the icky part of healing where the skin is forming and peeling off every day. The night i burned it was a night I was also taking Tori and Johnny out to the parade of lights (christmas parade at night with lighted floats). Even though I was burned I just couldn't not take them ... Tori looked at my arm and then looked into my eyes and asked me if I was ok ... her eyes knew that I was hurt pretty bad but was hoping that we would still go to the parade. She was so adorable that I just couldn't let them down. I grabbed a bag of frozen veggies from the freezer and we went to the parade. We had a blast! ^.^

Again work has been very busy. We had our christmas party last sunday. It was sooo much fun! We actually rented a ranch and went horse back riding at night and had smores around a campfire. I got magic cards!!! Yay me! (magic=nerd game) ^.^



Santa came to the store and and me and the kids took some wonderful pictures that I am totally in love with! I need to see if I can get them scanned sometime so I can show them off! They had a great time with him. It's soo wonderful to see them not afraid of him like they use to be. Now they are all excited to see him. I got three great pictures ... one of them even has me in it! ^.^

I was given a very wonderful offer today by my bosses. They can not explain how happy they are with me at the store. They threw out an offer of a salaried position to me. No specifics were mentioned. They have never offered this to anyone. They kind of want to be able to step back from the store and feel safe having someone else run it while they spend more time with their family. They of course know about my relationship with Shar and that I will be moving out there. They said that they were thankful that I have been open with my intentions and they thought that they should offer this as an alternative to whatever my future holds for me. (I have to say that they are actually very happy because I had told them I was leaving in the beginning of march and then that moved to the beginning of June and now it's more like the end of August. They will take every moment that they can get from me and of course I will work as hard as I can for them for as long as I can) I was very flattered and honored by the compliment of them offering me a salaried position. Jessica was very honest and said that they would do what ever it takes to get me into that position...even if it means taking pay cuts themselves. I had to chuckle because one of my bosses stephanie (who is not at all emotional or sentimental) was talking to my other boss Jessica ( who is emotional and sentimental) and told her that she enjoys working with me because things just seem to click when i am here and things get done and everyone is just happier overall. ^.^ But that's me ... I'm wonderfully contagious like that!

I am just about done with my christmas shopping. I need one more big gift for Tori! I am at a loss on what to get her. There is a doll that I keep eyeing but... its a little expensive. 90 bucks... but it's soo beautiful... and she loves dolls... I keep mulling it over and rethinking it... oh well we will see.

I am most excited because in five days I will be flying out to see Shar and Gabe. I miss them soo much. I am sad that I did not have enough money so that Tori and Johnny could come with me :(, however I am glad that I will get to be with my baby again. It's going to be an awesome two weeks. I am looking forward to meeting all the important people in Shar's and Gabe's life! It's a very long list ^.^ . I also am looking forward to kidnapping Beth for a day! She is pretty high up on that list.

OMG! Who am I today?

Wow today has been a day. I was just not me at all. It has been a very long and frustrating day. My mind didn't seem to be working at all causing me to do double work because I would forget things. I was tripping left and right and letting things slip through my fingers. I felt like a 16 year old awkward adolescent growing into his mind and body and nothing seemed to work properly. Gangly limbs flailing like a new born calf trying to walk and incoherent thoughts sputtering about mind like camera flashes trying to light up a stadium. *Chuckles* Come to think of it... I was sexually frustrated like the geeky teen I use to be as well >.< . Despite it all ... today was still a very good day. My bosses and co-workers were great. They all got a good laugh at seeing me ... not me lol. That kept my spirits up really. I was able to finish out the day fine. I am exausted tonight. I didn't even want to attempt making something delicious and healthy to eat and instead went and picked up a peperoni pizza and orange soda for me and the lil ones. I had lots of redecorating plans for tonight but those are definitely out the window. I used my last bit of sanity and strength to get these lil ones bathed and in pajamas. They are coloring with markers as I write this. Tori is showing me her picture of Japanese girl and her name written in Kanji (or at least she thinks it is >.<). When I am done here we are crawling under the blankets and going to watch Dora the Explorer Saves the Snow Princess and then Wall-E .... the same things we watched last night. I know shar would laugh in my face at what I call being at paitence end, lol, but I am all finished tonight ^.^.